Anthology

Penned for someone i know who is going through a painful separation. 

tears cured by salt.

crashing against my flesh,

pounding

me from the inside.

threatening

to relieve itself 

and seep out 

of every pore of my body.

the hairline cracks,

the faint flash

of dismalness in the eye;

they have to remain

as they are-

hints to a 

smithereened heart.

prisoners of sorrow.

do not even dare to

break down the wall

because I am trying

to live through this.

I accept all-

the retribution, 

the reapings,

the desolation; 

the ache of a 

thousand nights without you.

I am forlorn and forsaken

by a love that will never

pass my way again.

It is with the utmost regret

that I say goodbye to you.

that now, I too 

will turn my back on us.

for that yearning

to go away, to leave...

people say I can start again-

but you will always be

 embedded in my soul,

in every fibre and muscle,

in every memory, every scent.

I will see you in the shadow

of someone,

in the smile of another,

in the space next to me

when i fall asleep.

but i will cleave to the

memory of you in my heart-
the way you smile,
 the way your eyes light up,
the feel of your mouth 
pressing against mine...

and yet despite the 
great crashing 
of the waves within,
despite the mad stirring
of untamed waters-

i will never forget.
no, not I
not you.

by kaye